Every morning I wake up

I wash the face of depression away

And put on the mask of happiness

I put on a long sleeves shirt

To cover my wounds of suffering

I coat on my make-up

To try and cover my eyes

My dry eyes

My red eyes

My eyes that cry so many tears

I put on a sweater

To cover my blood stained sleeves of the other shirt

I leave for school

I turn on my music

To try and drown out the lies

I pull over my hood to try and hide me

Hide me from the public’s eyes

But there’s no need

To all I am invisible

To all I am nothing but space

To all I am not here

I go home

I come home to listen to nothing but yelling

Yelling at me

Yelling on how I am stupid

Yelling on how I am worthless

This will be no more

I go to the medicine cabinet

I grab a bottle of pills

I go to the bathroom

And grab the last razor

I go upstairs

I go to the bathroom

And fill the tub with hot water

I take the bottle of pills

And get in the tub

I slice my broken vein once more

Right down the middle

The blood pours out like water over the falls

I drain my body of its blood

The sleeping pills kick in

I submerge in my pool of blood that I have created

The last thing I hear

Is my mom

Saying she needs me

But little does she know

It’s to late

It’s to late for forgiveness

It’s too late for hope

It’s too late for a happy ending

It’s to late for me

Goodbye

                         Hayley Austin